Getting Out of the Hole

Autobiography in 5 Short Chapters*: Chapter 1: I walk down the street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I fall in. I am lost ... I am helpless. It isn't my fault. It takes me forever to find a way out. Chapter 2: I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I pretend I don't see it. I fall in again. I can't believe I am in the same place but it isn't my fault. It still takes a long time to get out. Chapter 3: I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I see it is there. I still fall in ... it's a habit. My eyes are open and I know where I am. It is my fault. I get out immediately. Chapter 4: I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I walk around it. Chapter 5: I walk down another street.

The hole represents those ideas and beliefs that keep us stuck and simply understanding them may not be enough to take us to Chapter 5. Growing up, I learned how to hide my feelings so I could navigate my parents' feelings; never showing or telling what I wanted or needed. I came to believe something was wrong with me and I couldn't be myself if I wanted to fit in or be loved. Looking back, I don't think I was ever completely myself. I am still working in Chapter 3 for my "mac daddy" false belief of "I'm not enough / I'm not good enough / there's something wrong with me." 

What about you? How are your early messages and beliefs about who you are still leading you to fall into the hole in the sidewalk? Are you afraid to ask for what you need or want? Are you afraid to appear needy? Or weak? Or assertive? Or arrogant? Are you afraid to sell yourself because you don't want to seem pushy? Do you push away good that is seeking you?  How easy is it for you to receive? Are you afraid to speak up, speak out, or speak your Truth? Have you settled for a life that didn't seem to be one of your choosing? Where do you make excuses in your life? What do you feel you don't deserve? Where and how have you given up? Where do you not let yourself be seen? Where are you holding back? How do your buttons get pushed? How does it make you feel when someone else gets what you want? Whose truth are you living?

There is something deep within calling me to step out and make my truth known. Is something deep calling you? Now is the time to be heard and seen!

* by Portia Nelson

Wisdom from Ernest Holmes

Unity does not mean uniformity. Life has set the stamp of individuality upon everything, from a blade of grass to a person. There is unity at the center, variety at the surface. These variations are separate and distinct without being separated or isolated. Variety feeds on the unity in which it is rooted and expands through a consciousness of being one with the whole.       

                   ~ Words That Heal Today

About Janet

Janet Kingsley, founder and spiritual leader of Center for Positive Living Sedona has been opening hearts and minds to infinite possibilities since 1998. Through articles, classes, and coaching she opens the heart, intrigues the mind, and feeds the spirit.

Janet is also a "Possibility Coach" who can see beyond your doubts and fears and ask the right questions so you can dive deep into your soul. She is also a master energy healer, utilizing her own special brand of intentional energy to help release each person's inner brilliance and wholeness. Focusing on helping people love their body, love themselves, and love their life, she is creating a movement and changing the world...one person at a time.

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